Am I either 'Neo' or 'Pagan' ?

Having read an article at A Pagan Soujourn I am beginning to wonder about both of those terms. I haven't ever really considered myself 'Neo', as what I am interested in, what I do and what I worship don't any of them have much to do with what's 'new', but rather (I believe, anyway) with what is very old indeed. In the light of the article on this other blog, though, I can't profess to be 'Pagan' either, it seems. I don't live "on, with and from the land". I would die if I was left to do that, though perhaps not as quickly as some might.

A modern lifestyle is severely at odds with my beliefs and my wishes for the world, but I do have to ask myself sometimes if I am being 'real' about my Faith ? Can I be, when I am a suburbanite living in a deeply industrialised and power-source dependent country ? It's one of the big issues for me. Yet I don't want to give up my comfortable, dry home with it's clean, piped water, flushing toilet and central heating.

I increasingly cast sidelong glances at the ideas of political activism and eco-friendly living and environmentalism and wonder if I should get more involved. Yet the reality is I don't even like or enjoy gardening.

It's a challenge for me to 'walk the walk' as well as to 'talk the talk'. I try, though. I recycle, I try to control my consumerism, I am aware of my surroundings and of Nature and try to stay attuned to the world, I protest attempts to steal away greenbelt land, I vote for people I think share my concerns and who might be able to hold power long enough to do something more than I can do as one person standing alone. Is it enough ? Honestly, probably not. But it's better than doing nothing.